This newsletter was the only thing that kept me in check. I’d review my week, how it went or reflect on my plans or work to share it in the newsletter.

Then I did the thing I know is my kryptonite.

I started overthinking.

I wanted to provide value, then I was experimenting with formats, then I was forcing myself to think and do new things to share here.

It all became overwhelming and eventually I gave up.

I convinced myself I was doing it for the streak and it was okay to let go.

But I feel untethered. The main goal of this newsletter has always been documentation. People have come and gone resonating with the journey but it was never for them. It was for me. And now that i have come to my senses, I’ll try not to forget my why.

You see, seeing people make business out pf newsletters tempted me. I started looking for sponsors and promoting editions and forcing myself to convert this into something it was never meant to be. I could never charge my fellow writers and readers. If ever I start a newsletter business I’ll keep this baby safe and sound and start a new one with that intention.

So where was I?

Now that we know why we are here, I’ll write like no ones reading. I need this space to be vulnerable, to admit I am not sure what I am doing and to celebrate wins that happen because of not giving up.

I need this to be a reminder to 2024 April Nikita how far she has come from being scared in the first 2 months to making a sustainable business of her skills.

The other day I went to my hidden folder in my gallery to see videos I had recorded of myself in May 2024, documenting what I did in the day. She was just a baby and I am soo proud of her.

Might share the video later (if ever).

That’s all I have to say to myself today! I’ll be here every Friday with learnings, reflections and plans. Holding myself accountable because we still have a long way to go.