I worked from a cafe this week, preparing for a prospect call (inbound) I haven’t had in a while. It sucked. The feeling of how empty my inbox has been lately and how I’ve been depriving myself of opportunities by becoming invisible online.
That used to be my USP: consistency, visibility, inbound leads, but I digress.
I looked back at my work and realised bhaii I have worked with some exceptional clients and done good work in the past 6 months and even more over the last 2 years. My immediate thought was, “Hanuman ko koi apni shaktiyaan yaad dilao”.. Lol. (iykyk)
But today I realised something I have always known in my heart. I even did a post about it, I searched everywhere but couldn’t find it. Maybe I wrote it in my head, idkkk.
That I get bored easily.
Very, very easily.
And the only reason I am feeling uninspired is because I AM BOREDD OUT OF MY MIND.
I was scared this day would come, but the realisation came a little later than I would have liked.
Gave up a corporate job without a backup (talk about risk taking abilities) - 10/10
Started something new almost every other month - 9/10
Stuck to whatever I started for at least 3 months - 9/10
Started, grew, got bored and closed 2 newsletters (yeah cause I was bored) - 8/10. But props to not getting too attached to these and getting stuck with purposeless passion projects, so let’s make it 9.5 maybe.
Was ready to let go of all my clients if they didn’t increase my pay (they did), but took a huge risk again.
Started posting on Twitter, experienced a viral tweet (90k impressions).
Gave videos a try too.
And this time I realised I haven’t done anything new or exciting or just for the sake of it in so long now, my old self feels like a whole new person. Like who was she.
She was the one admired by many, looked up to, and an inspiration to a lot of people, and at this point to me too :)
Anywayyy.. The call went well, and we are ready to risk it all again. Because hanuman ko uski shanktiyaan dheere dheere yaad aa rahi hain. I was not built to be complacent and cocky about my work. I have always been a learner and it’s high time to become one again.
Oh and this time it’s not forced at all. All previous announcements and comeback stories have been fake, will do this do that. But I am writing this at 2:19 pm, willing to risk it all (one more time).
The pattern is embarrassingly obvious now: I grow, I get bored, I begin again.